Welcome @erikwebb, I know you are struggling right now and it is extremely difficult for you. There are a few other discussions where you can meet other members who may be able to offer some suggestions to help.

-- Post Sepsis and ICU Syndrome: There are days I feel so down:
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/post-sepsis-and-icu-syndrome/
-- ARDS Support: my story and looking to help other survivors:
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/ards-support-my-story-and-looking-to-help-other-survivors/
Do you have a friend or family member that you can go with you to see a doctor?