mariagmerlino, I am old enough to be your Mama. Please take this from a loving Mother's heart, ok?

Praying for you right now. You are loved and God loves you very much. He made you special (Psalm 139:14). Yes, I am a Christian and I love you and I haven't even met you. I'm sure other people love you too. You have got to love yourself, ok? I am sure you have a lot to offer this world. There is nobody else just like you. We are all different and that's what makes us all so special. We compliment each other with our differences & strengths.

Sometimes we can all get hyper-focused on things about ourselves that we don't like. I'm sure that other people are not noticing your nose nearly as much as you are. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Don't compare yourself to others or you will be miserable, ok?

Is there someone you can go talk to that you feel confident and comfortable with? A Pastor? A Christian Counsellor that will be honest with you? Your words scream out depression and I pray that you get some help. Here is an Anxiety Hotline: 1-800-950-6264 and Crisis Hotline# 988. Sometimes just talking your feelings out with someone that will listen and encourage, makes a world of difference. I'm not sure what kind of insurance you have, but, if they can get you into counseling that would be wonderful to help you out of this dark time in your life. Promise me you will not do anything to hurt yourself please. I care.

Find at least 5 things every day to be thankful for. Journal your feelings. It is an anxiety reliever to write things out. You'll be amazed of what you have to be grateful for.

Exercise, eat as healthy as you can and drink plenty of water. It makes a difference!

I am sorry for those that have hurt you. People can be cruel can't they? I apologize on their behalf.

I can also tell you are lonely. To have friends, we must be a friend. Reach out to others. I guarantee you their are others that are lonely and will understand. You never know who the Lord may put in your path....just for you! Please don't let a few that have hurt you cause you to withdraw from life and people. There are many nice people in this world.

Community Colleges are wonderful. You must be very talented to want to do art. I can't draw a lick! One of my children got their nursing degree at a Community College and has done quite well. It's ok if you are later in life finding your "niche". My other child was also late in life finding their "niche" and that was ok. They found it later in life and are doing well too.

There are so many loving people on this website that really genuinely care. Please keep us all updated young lady.

I am signing off for now. Keep me posted. Love & Prayers, Mama