Hi,

I'm so sorry you are feeling so down and joyless. Its tough to see your way out of it when the overriding symptom is not wanting to do anything. It can change though. It just seems hopeless at times as the changing can be a tough journey too. So I just wanted to say that my partner is similar so you know you are not alone. He's a little younger but has been on Prozac for nearly a year now (depressed on and off for about 12 years though). But he fought going on medication and he's been very adverse to any therapy. Sadly for him the prozac isn't working for him so he's even more against trying new medication. He needs a hip replacement so he's also not exercising too which is imperative for his mental health. I've pointed out different meds work differently for different people. I myself have had severe anxiety for decades now, but have just been diagnosed with ADHD and the medication they have given me is making a huge different. None of the anti-anxiety meds were good with me as an FYI. So maybe your Doc needs to talk with you about different options? My partner has now made a doc appointment and we were lucky enough to talk with a neighbour who has a husband in therapy and who has recommended he go to this particular therapist (she is a therapist herself). Its only that he knows this neighbour that he is willing to try his therapist. Do you know anyone going to a good therapist? I've been to a few and it's so much about how you bond with the therapist to feel that it will help. You can always just go in for a trial session and see how you feel? I can be amazing to talk with someone who is objective and specialised in helping people with your challenges? I know its hard. Even harder if you don't have support at home. But it can be life changing finding the right person to talk with.