If you have the energy to leave the house a local mediation group might be able to help you. They are often found in Unitarian, Presbyterian and Quaker churches if not Yoga and Wellness Centers. The people I have meant there have depression and “heavy life” issues. They use meditation to sort out the good feelings from the bad feelings along with drugs form their therapists. If you want to download the free “Insight” app onto your smart phone, is helps you meditation from home. I hope you find ways to heal/ cope from your abuse ManySilver, a lot of us are on the same ship just different decks Withdrawal/side effects are brutal and you are not alone.