@yinyin I’m so sorry that life has taken this unpleasant turn for you and that now you feel alone. But Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. I’m sure that you will feel the love and encouragement and support from the other members. Do you have someone to talk with? A pastor or clergy person? A counselor? Someone who will listen and help you through the bad times. Maybe there is a support group in your area. As a member has said “it’s just one hour, one day.” Just take one day at a time.
Here is a Caregivers Support Group hosted by Mayo Clinic:
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/event/caregiver-support-group-meeting-3-8192/?utm_source=connect.mayoclinic.org&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=digest&utm_content=summary_events_event
Please feel free to ask any questions you want. We care!