Dear Aliali, l just came across your post here.l realize this was 5 years ago l want to tell you how sorry l am to hear your father passed away.l hope your doing ok?❤️ I lost my Father 8 years ago it hurts SO bad still hurts. He was my world my BF l ever had.💔 It is really hard to go on.lbsuffer from depression also. People all say it gets better in time l maybe you did not love your deceased enough. Then think l don't seem to have the skills to move on. My heart breaks for you Aliali🌹💛 Please know l added you to my prayer list. If there is anything l can do to help you please let me know. Like you l sleep 12 to 20 hours in one day. Once 24 hours straight. Your right it numbs the pain no worries when we wake up. I think let me wake up and everything is ok Dad still here. Everything is a struggle even to open a window is to hard. I hope your heart 💜 is healing Sweetie. XXXXXX🌹