@karen10225 This stupid disease throws nasty curve balls at us all the time, and certainly unexpected bleeding is near the top of the list! It is really scary the first time it happens, just like the first time you cough so hard you can't catch your breath and maybe are even "seeing stars."
I see that a lot of people here have shared their own stories about hemoptysis, and how they have learned to deal with it.
What I wish I had done back at the time of my diagnosis was to talk to a therapist about ALL of my fears surrounding MAC & Bronchiectasis - I'm pretty sure I would have managed better. As it was, I had a very compassionate long-time primary caregiver who cleared her calendar more than once to counsel me - and she finally put me in touch with a therapist who handles pain management and chronic illness. She has helped me get to a good place, and now I just touch base with her a few times a year.
Do you have someone you can talk to?