Being an emotional caregiver from a young age to my mother who suffered with severe depression to both physical and emotional caregiver now - my 88 year old mother. And my 55year old fiance —— like you said “ certainly not what we planned “ dreams have been put on hold or realized they will not come to fruition. So now it’s the smaller things that are meaningful ……. I hate waking up every morning with that sick feeling in my stomach of what will today hold …. I try to say Serenity Prayer over and over — just feel so sad and alone - long Covid has taken so much of him/ fiancé and we feel helpless to it , do not see an end ….and my mothers stroke and dementia has taken a lot of “ mom” - even though some of her personality has really softened - in a good way .
I just feel so heavy hearted and sad so often ….