@noh8pink please don’t allow insensitive doctors to devalue yourself.

I don’t know where you live, but I believe this hotline is available both in Canada and the US. Please call them. There is a light at the end of the tunnel!
https://www.fcc.gov/988-suicide-and-crisis-lifeline

@noh8pink, I read in earlier posts that you were diagnosed with Burkitt's lymphoma in 1974, but that you now are experiencing undiagnosed gastrointestinal problems. Is that correct?

Are you able to consult with a gastroenterologist specializing in GI issues?

I agree with @rashida. If you need to talk to some, you can call or text 988 and get support immediately.

What did the note say ? It’s hard to read ? Was this your Gastroenterologist MD ?
Oh please don’t take your life ! I know exactly how you feel . I’ve been to 5 Gastro Dr’s in 10 years. Even Mayo Clinic Jacksonville for testing ,
Had over 20 tests in 10 years. I have 7 diagnosed gastrointestinal disorders. I’m sick 🤢 every single day w/o a days break in 10 years.
I’ve tried everything, I mean everything. I know how desperate we feel to just feel normal ( even if it’s one day a week).
It also causes us to feel fatigue w/ all the other horrible symptoms. I’m sure many of us have felt like you do now . Please call the Suicide hotline number provided by others on here .
Don’t give up . Your family and friends need you . Keep searching for the right Dr. or Functional Medicine Dr. and seek out a therapist to help you get through this .
It’s just so hard . I know … praying 🙏 for you too .

Hi dear,
I’m so sorry for your suffering. What you explain is exactly what I been having for two years. I tried to manage it the first year, but the second year it was unbearable. I was hospitalized 4 times but not for this problem but because my heart rate was very low.
After trying everything, my gastroenterologist told me that there is only so much medicine can do for me. He referred me to a psychiatrist. When I’m in crisis not even an anxiolytic helps.
In April 2023, the doctor who discharged me from the hospital suggested to see an acupuncturist. I did. In a month I was feeling better, I continued seeing her until probably November 2023. The in December I had another crisis. I was hospitalized for 4 days. I apparently had a virus. So far for me, each time I’d heard “is a virus” meant the doctors don’t know what they’re talking about. Anyway, after my release from the hospital I went to the acupuncturist. She has helped me a lot. Then I had a personal problem and bang! all over again. My sister who is a nurse told me repeatedly that it was the anxiety because of my symptoms. I didn’t pay attention to her thinking she was minimizing my symptoms.
Anyway, to make the story short, I’m receiving psychological therapy. It’s helping. But what helped me more was to reconnect with my son after 17 years. I feel as a veil has been lifted from my head.
Now talking during my psychotherapy, I realize that I was sumerges in a severe depression, and I finally snapped.
I know my situation may not be applicable to you, but I realize now that my sister, my husband and the doctors have been trying to help me but I didn’t listen.
First of all, I’ve learned that when I feel I’m dying I am not going to die. Exercises given to me by the psychologist are helping me. When I’m in the bathroom feeling I’m going to die, I practice the exercises and these distract my attention, and after I feel better, I realize I didn’t die and the pain is gone.
Please ask me questions, one at a time may be better so we focus on just one issue.
Meanwhile, please allow me to send you a very close hug. Everything is going to be okay. I promise.