Thank you to those who commented, many of whom seem to be in the same boat, just at different times. I do volunteer here and there, mainly rescue dog stuff. Just haven't run across anyone there that I have an interest in that way. I have done some internet dating, don't get me started...lol. I always get asked what I am looking for, I never mention marriage but pretty much the rest of the stuff in the original post is mentioned. I have a hard time explaining it without sounding like a horse's ass (is ass allowed here?) but it seems every woman I meet in my age range has nothing. Just saying it out loud sounds horrible even to me (and I freely admit it) but I can support myself decently with my retirement but I can't support both of us as nicely. And I don't plan on lowering my standard of living and I darn sure don't plan on finding a job...lol. But I meet these women that are my age with no hope to retirement, own nothing to their name, yet can barely make a car payment... not to mention any type of health insurance. I made a few decisions right in my life and fortunately allowed me to retire early with decent benefits, I never forget I am lucky in that regard but I can't afford to add anyone to my insurance and I definitely can't pay for you to have surgery out of my pocket, but you can't afford it either so guess what? It would come down to me.. and I don't want to be financially unstable at this point in my life. And I honestly mean these women I meet have zero, zilch, nada.... and don't expect to.

I can't really talk seriously about this to anyone, you know to my friends I am always the problem solver, the listener, the strong one that can make complicated decisions. I am just not the one that has issues I can't figure out. Thanks for the comments, even from the social worker (moderator) of the group. I say social worker because I have a very old friend that I used to work with that is a social worker. I would laugh at her and tell her that talking to her did no good because she never answered my questions but instead asked me how that made me feel. When I would say that, of course her next reply was "and how does that make you feel"..... lol.

I am not sure how typing it out made me feel unless it made it even more real than it was. But I don't think it made it worse...lol. Oh, and you can let me have it about how crappy I sound with the whole support and lifestyle thing.... I expect it and I can take it and I will freely admit it sounds terrible but it's pretty real.... Thanks!