This is selfish but I feel the same way too and it makes me feel more normal that someone else feels the same way. I take medication to sleep & my practitioner is malicious which is now increasing my insomnia and the self hate. It’s extremely hard to get new person. I know that an intelligent accepting practitioner would make me feel more comfortable but the idea that I need acceptance from the outside increases my feelings of weakness. I hope that opening up in this forum will help me, that someone can understand and offer some kindness. This practitioner knocked the wind out of me. It’s terrible to feel this way.