I have faced major obstacles and personal al tragedy in my lifetime and I tell myself that I will get thru this . But this is gettting harder and harder to believe
Some days I will wake up at 3 am and go sleep in my study. Just to have my own space where I feel I can “breathe”. My spouse sleeps thru the whole thing.

I try to get away from my husband at least one or two times during the day to meet a friend for coffee or do some errands. He is suspicious of why I go out this is not the man I married . His behavior is unacceptable at times but we are stuck together; this is the first time in my lifetime where I do not see a light at the end of the tunnel