I'm glad you found this group, too. I'm more than twice your age, so I apologize if my advice seems out of touch. But, I've lived, loved, lost, and been lied to, too. I know it does get better, eventually. You'll learn here that you are NOT alone. It's natural to feel overwhelmed when diving into such unknown territory. It's hard, it's frightening, it's unfair. I salute you for everything you're doing for your husband. You'll find yourself stronger when you come out on the other side of this. Keep hope alive. Try to know you're working toward happier days ahead. Meanwhile, please keep reading and posting when you have a chance. Being a part of this community will help.