Hi @wife1. Welcome to Connect. I'm so glad you found our community. I too have struggled with depression and felt like I complete mess before, so I understand. You should be really proud of yourself for reaching out and asking for support.

I moved your post over to this thread since there are already a number of women discussing clinical depression here. I hope they will welcome you with open arms! I'm also tagging @klaymom, @wolfer1975 and @dawn_giacabazi who I hope will offer their thoughts and support as well.

You may also want to look at this thread where people are discussing use of anti depressants: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/i-have-been-on-so-many-anti-depressants-over-the-past-35/

Can I ask, are you taking any medications or seeing a mental health professional?

Sending you a virtual hug!

Welcome! You already have strength for simply joining this very supportive and loving community. Life gives us many burdens and great great challenges, but sometimes those things are given to us to transform us into women of strength and glory. I will add you to my prayers.