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Any women members here that have PTSD, and Acute Clinical Depression?

Posted by @kathyzendner, May 12, 2016

Are there any women members here that have PTSD, and Acute Clinical Depression? I would like to talk with women who have PTSD. I found out several years ago that I have had PTSD my entire life due to severe family abuse(physical & emotional) and incest. I was raped twice while I was in the US Navy. My PTSD is getting much worse again. I don’t currently have frequent access to the internet. I’m moving this weekend so hopefully I will have more internet time after I move. I may not reply right away due to my move. I hope to meet others soon to discuss PTSD, depression and military sexual trauma(MST) Thank you, Kathy Z

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I have both diagnosis, of PTSD & Clinical depression.

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Hi Kathy I hope you are back online soon. I am a woman with PTSD and have figured out some great ways to take care of myself, be loving with myself, and maintain good nutrition with quality foods. I’m so sorry to hear you have had such horrible trauma. I had PTSD begin after an awful injury years ago. Years later I went through horrific tragedy and of course, a level of PTSD was then constant. I still have trouble with crowds and simply avoid them. Exercise out in nature is one of my greatest health weapons. But wow it is an odd way to live sometimes! The adrenaline, fear, and high alert state is draining and exhausting! I am religious and know a loving ‘God watches over me, so that has been a powerful lesson for me. I will pray for you. Hope your move was ok and you can connect with others soon!

Here is a suggestion for anyone dealing with past trauma.
I don’t have PTSD myself but my husband does and he has found that EMDR Therapy has been quite helpful.
(Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).
I was treated with EMDR Therapy for neglect-abuse and found it extremely helpful.
If you decide to try it, research Psychologists in your area that have experience with treating PTSD AND EMDR Therapy.

Hello, yes..I do. It is severely debilitating. I cannot work. I now have agoraphobia, insomnia and breast cancer with oral cancer in remission. I have gone through so much like you have. I understand and its increasingly difficult to find a doctor who will prescribe benzo treatment. Benzodiazepines are one of the best for treating PTSD and major clinical depression. I am on klonopin 6 mg. TID and my new doctor wants me off these ASAP…?? Concerning for me since I have tried everything on the the market..ssri’s , snris, antipsychotics..with bad reactions yet, no help from Doctor except to seek psychotherapy which I do..ten years now but I’m at a loss. If anyone else out there knows of a good alternative drug besides benzos…please let us know..any info is helpful at this point.

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Hi Kathy, I am so sorry to hear of how difficult things have been for you. I too have PTSD, and am now considered bipolar although originally I was considered major depressive. it is a tough fight but one worth fighting. I hope you have some friends and family members nearby wherever you are moving to to help you get settled and feel a part of your new environment. let us know how you are doing.

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I so value the new threads and posts! Social support and compassion is such a powerful element of healing. May God bless and watch over all of you.

I am so sorry to hear of the terrible things you have had to live through.  I am an incest survivor.  I have PTSD and severe depression.  I also have rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia and sjogren’s syndrome.  There have been some studies that suggest fibromyalgia may be linked to having been abused when young.  I was also physically abused as a child.  Got a broken nose and broken ankle from it in addition to many bruises.  The thing is, my dad didn’t drink.  He was bipolar.  Anyway, I have three sisters, and we were all sexually abused.  But, by the grace of God, we have all grown into productive citizens.  I have a sister who has her degree in special education, a sister who is a doctor and a sister who has two masters – one in special education and one in English as a second language.  I am a legal assistant.  My mom was and is a wonderful woman.  We were also very close to my grandmother, uncle and aunt on my mother’s side.  I think those close relationships are what kept us from doing drugs or drinking or having more difficulties than we have with our past.  Three of the four are also Christians and very involved in our churches.  I believe my faith helps me very much.
I would be glad to correspond with you.  Have you been to therapy?  I have been in and out of therapy over the years.  I am also on my third marriage.  It seems I am doing well with this one.  My first husband was an abusive creep.  He almost killed me.  But the Lord has blessed me with three beautiful children and four wonderful grandchildren.  My first husband’s parental rights were removed.  He didn’t drink, either.  He was just mean.
I have found hope and healing.  The abuse does not have to define you.  Just let me know if you’d like to correspond.

@jeanner

Here is a suggestion for anyone dealing with past trauma.
I don’t have PTSD myself but my husband does and he has found that EMDR Therapy has been quite helpful.
(Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).
I was treated with EMDR Therapy for neglect-abuse and found it extremely helpful.
If you decide to try it, research Psychologists in your area that have experience with treating PTSD AND EMDR Therapy.

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Hi @jeanner, Thank you for your reply. I have heard of EMDR. I see my new VA psychiatrist this week. I hope he will help me! I live on a limited income so I can’t afford private Psychologists. I survived my move, however I’m also extremely ill with Autonomic Neuropathy. I will most likely be placed on home IV infusion of steroids to try to slow down my physical decline. I’m looking for local support groups in my area. So much to do, I’m very overwhelmed. I hope to find other ladies to connect with here! ~Katt~

@susandenise

Hello, yes..I do. It is severely debilitating. I cannot work. I now have agoraphobia, insomnia and breast cancer with oral cancer in remission. I have gone through so much like you have. I understand and its increasingly difficult to find a doctor who will prescribe benzo treatment. Benzodiazepines are one of the best for treating PTSD and major clinical depression. I am on klonopin 6 mg. TID and my new doctor wants me off these ASAP…?? Concerning for me since I have tried everything on the the market..ssri’s , snris, antipsychotics..with bad reactions yet, no help from Doctor except to seek psychotherapy which I do..ten years now but I’m at a loss. If anyone else out there knows of a good alternative drug besides benzos…please let us know..any info is helpful at this point.

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Hi susandenise! Thank you for your reply. I have been through 18 years of different meds & even 9 sessions of ECT! Now I’m waiting to see my new VA Psychiatrist this week. I hope he is a good doctor. I stopped all treatments for my PTSD/Depression in 2012, I got sick of taking pills that did nothing. Now I’m also dealing with Autonomic Neuropathy, an Autoimmune disease on top of every thing else. I do try to take a walk outside every day. Very overwhelming! I would like to hear from other ladies. Any ideas or info appreciated! ~Katt~

@susandockter

Hi Kathy, I am so sorry to hear of how difficult things have been for you. I too have PTSD, and am now considered bipolar although originally I was considered major depressive. it is a tough fight but one worth fighting. I hope you have some friends and family members nearby wherever you are moving to to help you get settled and feel a part of your new environment. let us know how you are doing.

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Thank you Susan! My sister was diagnosed with bipolar last December. She is also an alcoholic. She has been placed in a facility for her safety. Depression/Alcoholism is in my family. I drank & used drugs for many years to self-medicate. Not in over 30 years though. I lost a cousin to an alcohol/drug suicide when I was 16. She was 32. I need to be at the top of my game every day. I like to think clearly as I have so many issues to deal with. I have a younger brother here, and a few family members. Now that I’m moved back to my hometown, I will be looking for local support groups. I will stay in touch! ~Katt~

@blindeyepug

I am so sorry to hear of the terrible things you have had to live through.  I am an incest survivor.  I have PTSD and severe depression.  I also have rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia and sjogren’s syndrome.  There have been some studies that suggest fibromyalgia may be linked to having been abused when young.  I was also physically abused as a child.  Got a broken nose and broken ankle from it in addition to many bruises.  The thing is, my dad didn’t drink.  He was bipolar.  Anyway, I have three sisters, and we were all sexually abused.  But, by the grace of God, we have all grown into productive citizens.  I have a sister who has her degree in special education, a sister who is a doctor and a sister who has two masters – one in special education and one in English as a second language.  I am a legal assistant.  My mom was and is a wonderful woman.  We were also very close to my grandmother, uncle and aunt on my mother’s side.  I think those close relationships are what kept us from doing drugs or drinking or having more difficulties than we have with our past.  Three of the four are also Christians and very involved in our churches.  I believe my faith helps me very much.
I would be glad to correspond with you.  Have you been to therapy?  I have been in and out of therapy over the years.  I am also on my third marriage.  It seems I am doing well with this one.  My first husband was an abusive creep.  He almost killed me.  But the Lord has blessed me with three beautiful children and four wonderful grandchildren.  My first husband’s parental rights were removed.  He didn’t drink, either.  He was just mean.
I have found hope and healing.  The abuse does not have to define you.  Just let me know if you’d like to correspond.

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Hi blindeyepug! Thank you for your reply! I would love to correspond. My family & friends call me “Katt” now. The next few weeks are going to be very tough. I have so much to do, and meeting my new VA doctors. I will do my best to stay in touch. I have to go now to take care of this days business. Lots to do when you move! I’m looking for local support groups. ~Katt~

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@jeanner

Here is a suggestion for anyone dealing with past trauma.
I don’t have PTSD myself but my husband does and he has found that EMDR Therapy has been quite helpful.
(Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).
I was treated with EMDR Therapy for neglect-abuse and found it extremely helpful.
If you decide to try it, research Psychologists in your area that have experience with treating PTSD AND EMDR Therapy.

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FYI Ive been able to use EMDR with 2 different local therapists. They both would be willing to charge on a sliding scale, with appointments as low as 10$ for once a week sessions. There are always private people around willing to help supplement what you get through the VA. Some parts of emdr have been more helpful than others. But the helpful parts are amazing!

Also I’ve found that keeping the windows open and the Tv off for hours a day really help with my general feelings. Scented candles help too, as does having a ceiling fan over my bed so I can easily adjust it as my body temp shifts.

Amother thought, Katt. PTSD from abuse when you were a child is a very painful and difficult thing that seems to be present in every part of our lives. It is not something that gets resolved quickly if ever. I fight it all the time but I always come back to this: fighting is better than the alternative. Thank you brain that you’ve developed a way for me to survive the emotions and pain that come from such horrific events in our lives. I know if I had to deal with it all at once I wouldn’t make it. The constant drip drip drip of PTSD is draining and oh so hard to face each day. But it is better than the alternative. And sometimes the long hard fight suddenly pays off and the PTSD goes away – after 50 years of hell some of my symptoms are letting up. It is truely amazing. And I had to do my work every day and learn to trust myself, find people who love me the way I am, do countless hours of therapy – 30 years worth – and take lots of medication. No one thing resolves the trauma. Lots of pounding and pounding away at the issues. Today I am in a place where I can tell you it’s worth it to keep at it. Just do what you can do today, and be very loving towards yourself while you do it. We are here and we understand and we are with you!

@jms7

Hi Kathy I hope you are back online soon. I am a woman with PTSD and have figured out some great ways to take care of myself, be loving with myself, and maintain good nutrition with quality foods. I’m so sorry to hear you have had such horrible trauma. I had PTSD begin after an awful injury years ago. Years later I went through horrific tragedy and of course, a level of PTSD was then constant. I still have trouble with crowds and simply avoid them. Exercise out in nature is one of my greatest health weapons. But wow it is an odd way to live sometimes! The adrenaline, fear, and high alert state is draining and exhausting! I am religious and know a loving ‘God watches over me, so that has been a powerful lesson for me. I will pray for you. Hope your move was ok and you can connect with others soon!

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I am so thrilled at the women reaching out and sharing! So many great ideas. The thing to remember is you’re not alone! Many have survived and carry on. I am not saying it isn’t difficult, but I am saying it IS possible. Try different therapies until you find the one or multiple ones that work for you. I don’t carry it so much on my sleeve any longer – nor am I consumed by it or fear. I know praying helps me and being in a prayer group helps me. I do have occasional “triggers” but I do not respond to them the way I used to respond. The horror of incest and abuse is an internal scar you can never get rid of, but it doesn’t have to be a gaping wound or a scab that gets yanked off or picked at until infected. It can become a scar that you know is there and you look at sometimes and you are reminded of sometimes, but it doesn’t hurt you like it did before. You can tell people about it who ask or need to know about that scar, but you can do so with confidence and without worry about judgment. It CAN happen. My three sisters and I are testament to the same. I do hope your move went well and that you find some resources near you soon. Also, be careful of the groups you look to become involved in. Some bring you down and can get you stuck in what I call “emotional quick sand”. You need to know as ugly and painful and hurtful and frighting your experience was and still is to you, you CAN get better and live better and feel better. By the way, I also sleep with a ceiling fan on – it helps me! I also have always had a dog. The presence of a dog helps me feel calmer and safer. I also take medication for depression and to help me sleep. Some people may need medication in addition to talk therapy and other more natural therapies. I, too, am praying for you! You have reached out – that is a wonderful step! Your journey will be unlike anyone else’s, but you can use some of the same steps! I pray you feel sunlight today and are warmed by the many people praying for you and encouraging you.

Kathy, I am so sorry for everything you are going through… I too have my battles with depression and was subjected to sexual incest as a child.
Another therapy worth looking into is Equine Therapy. I found a psychologist here in Canada that works with individuals and couples for PTSD. His area of focus is on Vets and has finely got the Canadian government to give there support in making Equine Therapy available to vets and their families. My husband is not a vet but we did go for some sessions with him and the work he facilitates while using horses as a healing tool is quite remarkable! I found the impact quite powerful and my husband and i both agree that Equine Therapy
and EMDR are very strong tools in moving towards healing. I hope your new psychiatrist can bring some new hope and help into your life. Will be thinking of you and will check back in to hear how your appointment goes. Take care! jeanne

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