I am so sorry to hear of the terrible things you have had to live through.  I am an incest survivor.  I have PTSD and severe depression.  I also have rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia and sjogren's syndrome.  There have been some studies that suggest fibromyalgia may be linked to having been abused when young.  I was also physically abused as a child.  Got a broken nose and broken ankle from it in addition to many bruises.  The thing is, my dad didn't drink.  He was bipolar.  Anyway, I have three sisters, and we were all sexually abused.  But, by the grace of God, we have all grown into productive citizens.  I have a sister who has her degree in special education, a sister who is a doctor and a sister who has two masters - one in special education and one in English as a second language.  I am a legal assistant.  My mom was and is a wonderful woman.  We were also very close to my grandmother, uncle and aunt on my mother's side.  I think those close relationships are what kept us from doing drugs or drinking or having more difficulties than we have with our past.  Three of the four are also Christians and very involved in our churches.  I believe my faith helps me very much.<br>I would be glad to correspond with you.  Have you been to therapy?  I have been in and out of therapy over the years.  I am also on my third marriage.  It seems I am doing well with this one.  My first husband was an abusive creep.  He almost killed me.  But the Lord has blessed me with three beautiful children and four wonderful grandchildren.  My first husband's parental rights were removed.  He didn't drink, either.  He was just mean.<br>I have found hope and healing.  The abuse does not have to define you.  Just let me know if you'd like to correspond.