I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. I felt the same panic when diagnosed last year at stage My Dr wasn’t concerned at all… told me “ well it’s not like it’s stage 3 cancer!” Stage 3 as it turns out is the first stage they will even mention it to you. That’s the first stage that shows up as “ out of range” on blood tests. The tests can be greatly influenced by many things such as hydration so follow testing trends over time not individual tests for the best picture of what’s happening. What finally calmed my fears was doing hours of research about CKD, online. While it’s true kidneys don’t repair themselves, you can greatly slow the progress of CKD with proper diet and lifestyle and addressing any possible underlying contributing conditions such as high blood pressure etc. The American Kidney Foundation is a great source of information. Certified nutrtionists are a great resource as well. I haven’t found a general MD who has any in depth knowledge of the disease and nephrologists won’t see me at stage 3 as it’s considered mild and they are swamped with folks at later stages. CKD is reaching epidemic proportions in our society. I believe not mentioning it until stage 3 is one reason! Arm yourself with information and reach out as you’ve done. Try to breathe…. Peace