I understand how you feel. My calendar is filled with appointments. Follow up’s, consultations, evaluation, radiology etc, etc…It is at the forefront of my life too. I don’t know what exactly happened that made it like this. Health issues present and they can consume especially when you need to focus on them when seeing the doctors. I have to come to accept that this is what I must do to live a longer life. Being there is no cure, managing symptoms and work to that end is what the option is. I hope you feel better. Sometimes they need to learn to have a heart and a bedside manner. These days it is more and more a business.