I seem to have a story that just keeps getting more mountains and valleys the longer I am around. My entire life seems to be me all alone while I am completely surrounded. After 29 years I am beginning to come to terms with the fact God needs me to focus and I do it best this way.
I’ve got people who love me, a couple people who might understand me, and a small group of people that support me, but at the end of the day and in the quiet hours alone at home it’s just me inside my head and God knows there is a war in there I face on my own.
God has given me everything I need to conquer this particular mountain and he’s my biggest supporter, yet even for someone raised from first breath to trust in God, I can’t quite feel his presence on the battle field. I have to have faith that he is present even in the numbness of my depression, the fear of my anxiety, the anger, the self hate, the frustration, and all the pain.
Then I take a nap and work on my CSD coping skills and day to day therapy! Woo! Ya know my Grandfather told me I could do anything I put my mind to and he told me to save the world one dog at a time… I wonder if he would still see that I am doing things, just a bit differently than I thought?
Oh, if you don’t have a pet of some sort….even if you are retired….I highly recommend one! Science hasn’t caught up to explain it, but God didn’t create them critters for nothing! Personally my pets are part of my therapy for my conditions on all levels and maybe, one day, I can share what they have done for me with others.
I should sleep now.
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From: Mayo Clinic Connect
Date:02/20/2015 2:59 PM (GMT-06:00)
Subject: Roman replied to discussion “Hello, My name is not important but my […]” [Mayo Clinic Connect]