HiLJ1982..I am, also, sorry for your loss. I lost my mom a few years ago, and it is still hard sometimes…However, what has always helped me is, when I feel like I need to talk to her, then I do..I will talk out loud, just like she is in the room, and I get great comfort from it, cause I know she is helping God watch over me each day…I also, in April, lost a third (3) Older sister. I have been really struggling with her loss, because it leaves me with no older “female” family to see, and talk to. Mostly, I am having trouble because, against her Cardiologist advice, she wouldn’t quit smoking long enough for her lungs to get in good enough condition for her to have open heart surgery to save her life…So, in addition to grieving her loss, I am struggling because, I am really mad at her..I am seeing a counselor who is helping me tremendiously, which I recommend you also might consider…There are free counselors at most churches. Good luck with your life…God Bless you..