Thank you so much babs. Yes it is exremely hard for me. All I have is an older brother and we aren’t very close, of course I have my father and we have never really been that close either because I have just always been closer to my Mom. I remember My father always yelling at me when I was young and he had a bad temper and I never really developed a relationship with him. I am devastated to lose my Mom and when I miss her or just need to talk to her(I used to call her everyday on the phone) when I feel like I want to pick up the phone to call her but realize I can’t because she isn’t there I just talk out loud to her, I miss her dearly and I think I am handling this situation better than I expected, I start to think of her and get sad again. A few days ago I broke down in tears just thinkin about things we used to do and will never get to do again, or how she won’t get to buy my 16 month old daughter clothes or toys off of ebay anymore. And I look at things she bought me or my daughter and get sad. I even saw an Olive Garden commercial on tv one night and started crying because that is where we used to go out to dinner alot as a family. I might need to talk to someone. I will look around at local churches in my community. Thanks again. And I am sorry for your losses as well.