omg i have had drs ask me if i have an eating disorder. its like “yes you dumbfucks,i have an eating disorder. thats why im in your office begging to help me find a way to gain weight.” dont anorexic people generally not want others to know about there suffering.lol it does feel nice to know another knows your pain. i went to church today and started crying. i feel like no one understands. and i have my faith in the lord but am getting so sick that at times i wish id pass away. but i have four kids and they are the only reason im attempting to carry on. they mean more to me then anyhting in the world but at times i feel like a failure of a mother for being so sick. my eldest who is ten lost her father to cancer when she was five and he was 27. i also have a five year old girl and identical twin boys that are a year. there dad is an addict that is always recovering then fucking up which only causes more misory to my world. hes staying here to help my since im so ill but i finally got the guts to put an end to the relationship last month. anyone willing to take advantage of a sick person, well i dont know what to think about it. i hardly have any friends and my three that have stuck by me live in norway, chicago, and wisconsen so i am feeling so alone at times it hurts to breathe.