I too just joined this minute and ended up directly to you. I believe everything happens for a reason and the people here that have replied to you are right. This too shall pass. I know that sounds so simple but it’s true. Along with what the other person said about suicide being a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Man, I don’t know how many times I told myself that one. It’s really is true. Don’t forget it.
I am supposed to be dead now according to my specialists and many doctors I have seen. I am waiting for a double lung transplant but, get this, I am too healthy for one now! That could change at any time but for now, I am counting my blessings. You know what I started doing and it has changed my life? I found some people that needed a little help and told them if I could help them to call me. The two ladies live in my building and the one is on my floor. We met through a fire alarm and she was sitting in her wheel chair in her doorway not knowing what to do and I told her I would stay with her and we would get out together. I have a walker she has a wheel chair. She had cancer of the tongue and also a very bad stroke that has left her left arm not working and she is quite immobile. That was almost a year ago and since then we have become good friends and she counts on me for certain things she needs and I have taught her to indoor garden. She loves her plants and looking after them gives her a great hobby she wouldn’t have had, if she hadn’t met me. I help her with them all the time as she only has the one good arm but it is so gratifying to me because I am giving back. A lot of her workers have told me how much she has improved since meeting me.
I am blessed to still be here and believe me…until a year ago I was in bed 24/7 and would pray for God to just please please take me. I have so much wrong with me (have only told you one thing) but I am blessed to be able to do for someone who can’t do for themselves. She also gets meals on wheels so sometimes I surprise her with a nice roast with all the fixin’s and you would think I just gave her a great Christmas present. I know it sounds too simple and not very attractive right now but just go on faith and try to find someone who needs you. The satisfaction that you will receive will help you in ways you never believed it could. I could go on and on about the benefits we have both received but I think you get the picture.
I am sure you are not motivated at this time because you feel so low that you want someone to come and pull you out of this terrible situation and suicidal feelings you have now. I know. You feel like I just can’t see how I can do this when I feel sooooo week. It just feels like it is too undoable. Say a prayer and so will we to help you do this. Keep praying, I know He listens. He finally listened to me once I got sincere and prayed from my heart and desperation because I had no where else to turn. Do it…I swear He will answer you. Good Luck and God bless you, Stay alive, you are loved and needed even if you don’t realize it right now, success is just around the corner!