I hear you. This has been a tumultuous year for us as well. We lost a dear family member and I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Living with a cancer diagnosis is an emotional roller coaster. I try really hard to not overthink things as I am essentially cancer free right now. But everyday when I take my medication it is a stark reminder that mortality is out there. The middle of the night, when I awaken for any odd reason, is when my mind races. Any given day I might burst into tears because the future is so unknown. But then I realize that the future is unknown for everyone not just cancer patients. My daughter's friend went out to a bar one evening. She was responsible and called a Lyft to go home. She never made it as her Lyft was t-boned by a drunk driver. She was 22 years old. Like you said most people live with the "veil" of immortality and they don't realize that death is in front of them all the time. With a cancer diagnosis it brings living more to the forefront. You are on the right track with the idea of not wasting a minute of life. It is indeed the little things, like the warmth of your dog against your leg, that mean the most. Keep your chin up!