Anal cancer 6 years ago! Chemo etc! Ileostomy! Reconnection failed! Now colostomy! It prolapsed to 5” year ago! Now not even an inch! Had blood clots in both lungs twice! They said I should be in the ground! Spouse of 40 years passes while I was having surgery! Don’t remember how I survived by myself in 2 story house! Now having back problems! Had rods put in for nothing! So much scar tissue in abdomen, had to go into back! Neuropathy in both feet! Nothing has worked! Joined senior citizens for lunch everyday! Also 2 years ago joined dating sites to keep me from going crazy! Lot of lonely people out there! Am 68!