Hello, Vicki. I also have Complex Trauma/PTSD/Clinical Depression/Insomnia from 18 years of abuse as a child. I am 65 now. When I was 64 I came to Mayo Clinic for a diagnosis thinking I might have Parkinson's Disease. The right side of my body was in almost constant tremors from slight to extreme, my head was bobbing yes, yes, yes. After two years I'd finally gotten into a Neurologist in my area who diagnosed me with essential tremors.
The Neurologists at Mayo did a full workup and four days of tests later, the wonderful, Dr. Ali showed me my test results. She said I have what is called "Conversion Tremors". It is a fascinating diagnosis and it filled me with hope just knowing it was not PD. My Neurologist here at home went over my results with me from Mayo and referred me to a Psychologist who specializes in the area of Complex trauma/PTSD. He agreed to accept my case if I agreed to weekly appointments, with the understanding that this could take years. One year in Vicki, my life has completely changed for the better. I now have a PSychiatric Service Dog who has changed my life. There is hope out there, Vicki. I'm not "cured" but have made significant progress that is noticeable to myself and my husband says it's a huge difference he sees. I have had decades of Psychiatric/Psychological treatments Vicki, finding one who specializes in this area of trauma is going to make all the difference in the world. Sending you healing energy.
I also wanted to add, that when my parents died twenty-two years ago three months apart I knew they were at peace and could no longer hurt anyone or themselves again. I found a deep peace knowing that.