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21 hours ago · Grief: My 'bad' coping mechanism experience in Loss & Grief

I work in acrylic. want to explore watercolor this winter but worried as I have a bit of a dyslexic mind and taking away my 'white' color scares me a bit… ha. I"m not a finished artist. I just learn as I go.. but some people seem to like what I do. NOT realistic. more impressionistic. I only WISH I could be a realistic painter.

23 hours ago · Grief: My 'bad' coping mechanism experience in Loss & Grief

hi Ginger.. I did decide since I"m not going to have a right hand that I"m going to turn it all into a positive. I bought larger canvas ( for less detail work), and I"m going to attempt to soften my abstract paintings by using my left hand!!!!! I"m actually looking forward to it. I have a couple ideas already. Right now, I'm just trying to get out the commission Christmas work.. while I have a right hand..ha At least I have something to do when I can't sleep now. Seems like everyone wants work done now. But,, still would rather sleep.

1 day ago · Grief: My 'bad' coping mechanism experience in Loss & Grief

checking in.:
had my 11 mayo appts last month so getting the physical aspect of my life in order. have more appts in the future. Lately,,I've been being bombarded with thoughts of my sister,, grief,anger at myself and just uneasy… Is it the start of menopause? Is is my thyroid problem? is it my bipolar? is it winter?.. is it the holidays coming ( remember,, I did not get to go out to visit my sister last Christmas when she died.). My medication has been upped.. I have been increased to 20 Mg of Abilify now along with others. I wake every night from 1:47 to 2:15. , Sometimes I can get back to sleep but most of the time, I just stay up as i just lay in bed thinking of things I shouldn't. So, I end up getting out of bed and staying up doing things. I"m also on Belsomra, 15 mg. It does GET me to sleep but doesn't KEEP me sleeping after I wake most of the time. I can't figure out what this 2:00 AM thing is. It did start back last spring but I didn't pay much attention to it then. I'm wondering if THIS is the physical time my sister passed. So, yes. when I wake,, my thoughts go there.
I have completed the DBT classes and they have helped curve some of my thoughts. Self harm thoughts only come briefly then go quickly. I have managed to stay sober since Aug. I don't know why on earth I chose this time to become sober. Drinking thoughts are getting stronger too but I"m still plugging along. why??? have no idea.
Thanksgiving we always shared with our friend that shot himself this summer. So I guess he is on the subconscious too.

BUT,, I seem to stay ok. I am an emotional basket case. ( probably that change in life thing coming on too on top of all this.). It is hard to separate what is triggering or going on. My Graves disease is being treated so hopefully, that will help things smooth out. I have shoulder surgery scheduled for Jan 8th. Right arm so I"ll be useless….

Just so much going on.

1 day ago · My experience with Endocrinology and more at Mayo Clinic in Diabetes/Endocrine System

yes,, it was endo, gyno, ortho and general of course. lots of activity..ha Have follow up appts with endo and gyno in a couple weeks

2 days ago · My experience with Endocrinology and more at Mayo Clinic in Diabetes/Endocrine System

not sure where to post this. but I just wanted to say how GREAT my experience at Mayo was. I had 11 appts including lab and x-ray in 2 days time. All rolled along well. EVERYONE at the whole facility was MORE than helpful from secretarial staff to the doctors. EVERYONE that is involved with Mayo is courteous. My only complaint was my motel… but.. got thru it.. I return on the 26th of this month. 4 more appts. Monitor: please feel free to place this post where it belongs.

3 days ago · How long have you been sober? in Addiction & Recovery

Aug 12 .. is my new date. had to 'fire' my sponsor.. and don't get to meetings anymore.. they are 1.5 hours away. winter is here… holidays are coming… still grieving a major death…. gonna be tough….

Sun, Oct 27 7:38pm · Thyroid Nodules in Diabetes/Endocrine System

can you post a link to the article…??? got me curious

Sun, Oct 27 3:41pm · Thyroid Nodules in Diabetes/Endocrine System

now I'm curious,,, so there are no real tests for nodule cancer other than doing a needle biopsy? IF that is the only way to know,,, then why don't nodules be tested more often??? puts a lot of questions in my head.. I guess since,, in my personal experience now,,, they are taking out the thyroid anyway so maybe they will test it then..??