Like I said I was an addict for over 20 years and I just came to the point where I couldn't do it anymore. I look back and I wishit hadn't taken me so long to hit rock bottom, but that is how long it took. When drugs control your life, there is no sensible thinking. It is a bondage. I also know that for me, in my mind I wanted to stop. I knew somewhere deep inside that this was not how I wanted my life to be, that there was something better if I would just stop the drugs. And I truly wanted to. But wanting to and being able to are two totally different things. I went to a faith based treatment facility and got help. But I absolutely wanted help. I was ready to change my life.