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Sat, Nov 23 5:28pm · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

I had my grandson over this morning and we played Monopoly and talked and laughed as we played. I am so blessed to be a grand parent.

Fri, Nov 22 10:34am · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

Well, I’ve had some set backs. Had suicide thoughts and have anger at least 2 days a week that make me extremely confrontational. Visited the ER 2 weeks ago and had another panic attack in front of the crew. So ….. I ‘m back to sitting with a therapist to talk through issues that are now returning and have never been resolved. Thanks for this moment to write about it.

Sat, Oct 19 6:48pm · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

Went to Utah and visited the National Parks. We walked and hiked to some of the worlds most beautiful, scenic canyons. The rush from looking at beautiful scenery really helped my attitude and memories of these sceneries will last a lifetime.

Mon, Sep 30 10:09am · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

I’m so blessed to be close to my grandkids that constantly teach how to have fun and laugh 😆. Everyone needs to talk out their feelings to people and laugh at yourself and with people. I realize that physical pain is apart of us all and I feel in some of my friends that they just need a hug and understanding to make it through the day. Peace to everyone.

Fri, Sep 20 4:57pm · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

Once again I revisit the negative and judgmental conversation of family and friends who find that during an hour of visiting together that they love to sit and talk down other people. We really don't know the people that they're talking about and disgusted about, yet we judge them to make ourselves feel good? I have to leave the room so that I get some fresh air and think of all of the blessings I have been given in my life. I want to be realistic about actions that people make but I can't possibly judge them because i'm not perfect either. Stay calm and peaceful and positive toward everyone. It's much easier on yourself.

Sun, Sep 15 7:29am · Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety. in Depression & Anxiety

I went to a jazz concert last night …. music 🎶 just calms all of my thoughts and relaxes me more than anything. Turn on your favorite music and listen. It’s peaceful rhythm to enjoy.

Fri, Sep 13 11:12am · Depression and Anxiety at an older age in Depression & Anxiety

When my deep valley feelings occur they last all day, and night and gradually go away as the sun comes out. I exercise and play my instruments (trombone. piano, Clavinova, etc.. I like yoga and reading

Thu, Sep 12 6:56pm · Depression and Anxiety at an older age in Depression & Anxiety

Sometimes I find myself being very confrontational with anyone around me, feeling like hitting them with a baseball bat or something. This moment setups an alarm to me like that dark moment I have at times ….I have to talk with my wife or sister about what I'm feeling. I will not talk to anyone else until this feeling passes. My doctor (GP) knows about these episodes and wants me to report the times and increases of these. I'm on Lexapro 20 mg so I can't take more but I can supplement with propranolol 40-60-80 mg if needed. I believe my childhood experiences have not been fully talked through with a male psychiatrist and I know that I need to challenge myself by seeing one. I tried several years ago to see one…. I had nightmares about killing him after one visit. I guess it's time to try again.