Hi @tmf0, I am sure you are going through a lot, I have personally had my own share of anxiety and depression so I can imagine what you are going through. In my case, I have been in and out of depression. I can't remember exactly how often this happens. But what helped me out was trying to find the root cause of my depression and dealing with it. Are you sound enough to go through this exercise? If you can, I will suggest you do so. And when you find the root cause, try to deal with it, in the long run you will feel better.