Mary. I am sure you will be able to get back your old self and taper off Clonazepam. Three things are important here. First. Reflect on why do you need it at all? the medicine was probably given over a long period to deal with your anxiety states. Second, you know every individual is different, sensitive and reactive. Each one of us have our spaces. Negative and positive. Try to to identify this and move into the positive space. Third, After such a long use tapering off will need patience and an alternative minimum medication assisted living. I suggest you reflect on what makes you happy. Music. Reading. Maybe a walk. A pet perhaps? Absorb your conscious mind into these positive things. Try to ignore the negativities. Its always there. And..please consult an experienced physician and try "slow tapering" regimes. I am sure it will work. All the best and take care.