I am right with you with your feelings. I had stage 4 Neuroendocrine cancer of small bowel in 2013 with metastasis to liver and lymph nodes also found by a smart gastroenterologist. Surgery removed it all and surgeon said 99.9 percent chance of reoccurrence. I now have two spots on my liver which every MRI has a different explanation. Oncologist moved and saw a temporary oncologist who hadnt looked at my records and was nonchalant about whole thing. Just had another MRI with results being stable metastic lesions although both increased in size. Had a liver biopsy last November and results were benign although Dr. Wasn't sure he got the tissue. One thing after another. Just take one day at a time.