Thank you for your concern. I finally found a counselor at another hospital who had the same surgery I did. He is very compassionate. I also tell every doctor I encounter what I went through, and let them deal with it. My friends who know me, and know that my husband was terminally ill at the time I was in ICU, still wonder how I survived the whole thing. My husband died 3 months later but I was able to be with him. Right now I am somewhat less depressed but still purposeless.