@astaingegerdm – I think my mom might be the only person who truly remembers each year of my loss. I tend to disappear during our Christmas Eve activities every year for at least 10-15 minutes just to be alone. I say prayers for my lost child, I allow myself to mourn the loss once again, and I thank God for my blessings and that I have a very special angel up in Heaven to look down on me and my family. Fibromyalgia is a beast. It rears it's ugly head at the worst moments – when you are stressed! It's brought on by stress, sometimes by weather, sometimes by activity, etc. Going to the Pain Rehab Clinic at Mayo was a Godsend, but it's still a struggle. The flares catch a person off guard and can be very difficult to get under control. AND you never seem to know if the pains you are having are fibro related or something serious that you should be going into the doctor or ER for. I also have a history of kidney stones (so far 6) but that pain is unbearable on my own, so I know to go in. At the age of 42, I've been through quite a bit. I had gastric bypass a couple of years ago to help with the fibro, other aches and pains, borderline diabetes, etc. I have lost 150 lbs which is great but had many complications through the process and they'd actually like me to gain about 5-10 lbs back at this point. I have had 3 kidney stones in the past year and ended up having my gallbladder removed because of gallstones and stomach issues that just weren't going away. One of the kidney stone surgeries and the gallbladder surgery were within a week of each other and the recovery time was incredibly LONG. Anyway, you don't need to hear all of this. I guess I got on a roll. I will pray for your children, as I pray for those suffering with pain often. Take care.