Lisman, I lost my right breast to cancer almost two years ago. I go for my annual mammogram on the left breast in a few weeks and I'm nervous, of course, but I won't let any of this get me down. I'm 81 years old and the surgery, chemo, and radiation are all behind me, but I'll be on this med for several years, I guess. I look on all of it as an abysmal inconvenience but not necessarily a life-changer–except that I value the time I have left even more now.
I beg you not to give in to fear. If it doesn't eat you up, it will, at the very least, slow you down. Don't let fear win. Sending hugs.