@oxbeaux As in any endeavor, there is always a "day one". Applauding your first day, and the bravery to start. I read your post this morning before heading out to do a bit of yard work. It gave me great food for thought, as my hands were busy yanking at unwanted growth [weeds]. Any form we use to get thoughts down is what works for us that day. Another time we might choose to use pen and paper, or draw out out thoughts/feelings, or cut out images from a printed source. Place a clipping from the newspaper or magazine that speaks to us, then write how it affects us. Mementos that mean something to us. It's all good!
Condolences on your recent loss, and now the big change in your life as you left what was familiar and ventured into your siblings' territory. Has your RV become a welcome respite for you, or are you planning your return to Phoenix area soon? Your journal is literally an open book for you to explore yourself, and your surrounding world.
Thank you for joining us here, please come back when you can. We can pretty much promise to be here and be of whatever support you need!