Dear naturegirl5, I wrote to you when you first joined the group. I'm glad to see that you are doing well. Like you, I don't post very often. However, I noticed your comment about your worries regarding a recurrence or secondary cancer. I would imagine all of us share those concerns, perhaps for a lifetime. Although I would say, as time goes on it does seem less burdensome emotionally on a daily basis. Most of us experience anxiety prior to an appointment. I had one in October and my blood pressure was sky high when normally it is quite low (they have me monitor it at home). I'm always completely elated when it is all over and my husband and I celebrate. Then I turn my attention to my life, my loved ones, and dear friends (I don't have a pet as I travel too much, but I had dogs for years). I'm certain your appointment will go well in February, but I truly understand your feelings. Be well.