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May 10, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

@gailb @parus Yes it is amazing how grandchildren can make our hearts smile. I have never been a happy person although I try. I never been a real religious person, although I have always believed God was there, so the dream had a deep impact on me. Those grandchildren do show unconditional love to us and the innocence in them I want them to keep forever. Never want them to grow up but I have no control over that. haha.

May 10, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

@gailb,@parus

I am so sorry what you both are going through. It hurts my heart for what you and others are going through and this is the only way I know to try and help.

I cannot say I really know what you are going through because we all are different. Being physically, mentally, and sexually abused at a young age and knowing your brothers, sisters, mother was going through the same thing took it's toll on me mentally. I am 57 and deal with this secret all the time. I have GAD, MDD, and Anxiety, Panic attacks, etc. All the things that come with depression and more things that it has caused. I dealt with it the best I knew how as a child and a adult. That is all we can do. Try to deal with it and hope something will help us. I am not proud of how I dealt with it. So I did the best I could. I learned after being older however that just because I did not beat my children or other things, I lacked loving them the way I should have. I wrapped myself up in work not to think of my abuse but in the mean time not thinking of what I should have been doing with them. I don't think I let them know how much I loved them. I can't remember if I told them enough or not. thank God they are both good adults. No drugs or alcohol problems and they both work.

Now to get to the part we are all different on how we handle things. My siblings and I are close. We all love each other and we help people if we can. The only hate I felt is for the person who did this to us. One handles the abuse until she drinks too much then all men are dogs and becomes verbally violent. She is a hard worker and always have been. She gives to those in need. The other drinks all the time, did drugs, and wanted revenge all the time, could be abusive at a times. He could not hold down a job. He helps the people he can that need it. The other handles it like I do but better. She is a hard worker also. She gives to people in need. As the years went by for me I dealt with it by drinking sometimes but mostly what helped, which might sound out of sorts to some, is knowing that there are people out there who went through worse. I tell myself it could have been so much worse than what we went through. There is always questions as to why? Why do people hurt others? How can they hurt their own children, wife, husband? Why? Why? Why?

What helps me now and makes me feel better is this grandchild I have been raising since she was 2 weeks old. She is almost 4 now. She was a gift from God. How do I know? It came to me in a dream that there will be a baby in our lives. Of course I dismissed it as being a silly dream but when it came true and when we took the picture in my dream I knew she was a gift from God. So the laughter and love she brings with her helps me so much with this depression. It still will come back when I become overly stress like happened when I joined here recently, but she helps pull me out of it.

I hope no one takes this in the wrong way. I am just trying to help someone, anyone. I hate to see, hear, people are hurting. I have not said much on here because I do see people who are hurting way more than I am. I feel all my problems are petty compared to most the people on here. I hope by telling this story it helps someone in some way.

God Bless,

May 7, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

@seeker70 I can relate to your depression. I also had it since I was a kid and now a senior. It is mild sometimes but mostly it stand its ugly head out and it keeps me from enjoying most things. I recently told a friend I was depressed again and don't know why. I want to be happy and enjoy life. I want the joy most people feel and live. When I was younger I would work long hours so my mind would stay busy on work instead of depression. Now that I am older I realized I was only hurting my children because I was engulfed in work and too busy to be with them. The guilt and worry that comes along with depression is terrible. Prayers for all of you. I hope we all beat this thing once and for all. Wanda

May 3, 2018 · burning mouth syndrome very severe in Just Want to Talk

@chloejulie @oregongirl Thank you for answering my question. I have lost all the enamel on my teeth for a while now. Not sure how it happened. Anyway I got my upper teeth pulled when I was in my early twenties because I always had problems with my teeth. No side affects from that. My lower is the problem I am worried about. Now that I have all this other stuff going on at 57yrs old. Besides GERD, which is very bad and I found I cannot take pain meds with anything that has to do with codiene, I am scared to death about the pain I will have since I cannot take nothing like that. The last time I had a tooth pulled on the bottom I hurt for two weeks after they pulled it from pain. I prayed God would take it away. I have 8 left and they need to go. This is so scary and I am so sorry all of you are going through this. I pray God takes your pain away.

You all are wonderful on here trying to help others with this terrible thing. Your suggestions I am sure will help at least one person if not more so know you are helping with everything you write and experience. God Bless all of us.

May 2, 2018 · burning mouth syndrome very severe in Just Want to Talk

Hello all. I was wondering because I have not seen it on here if anyone can tell me when it first started? Was it after dental work, surgery, illness, or just pops up out of the blue? I have severe GERD but not BMS. I was trying to look for a common factor that all of you had when it first started. No I am not a doctor. I am going to have some major dental work done soon so between the GERD and dental work I am wondering if I should put off having the rest of my teeth pulled?

May 1, 2018 · fibromyalgia pain in Chronic Pain

Hello. I believe I have Fibro also. Even though my doctor called it something else. My aunt has it and she kept telling me I had it and I kept dismissing her. I was going to the doctors for pain and numbness in my hands. When I went nothing was going on so pretty much I was pronounced crazy I am sure. One doctor went so far as to say I was trying to get false worker's comp and I was not even filing for workers comp. The rhematory doctor I went to called it myalga even though I had a lot of the trigger points. Most doctors do not or did not believe in Fibro. so I was dismissed of wanting pain meds. No, I am not addicted to anything. I have a problem taking medicine because I do not want the side effects or the after effects. Besides trying different medication for depression some which is used for Fibro. I did not stay on them long because of side effects. I did notice that water therapy did the most good for me. Could not continue to go because of money issues but I know after a few sessions I felt so much relief from pain. I was on 12 different medication at one time when I realized I was taking one medicine to compensate for another and so on. I got off of all of them but the IBS medication and muscle relaxer. These I take as needed so am not on them all the time. The rest I through away and did feel better for the most part. The medicine was causing me more problems than the problem itself. I am not a doctor or nurse so this is my own personal observation. Everyone is different and different things help them that did not help me. Am I still in pain. Yes all the time. I learned if I moved instead of just sitting or laying down I feel better. Walking is good for you. Some days the pain is worse than others. Some day my depression is worse than others. I get by in thinking to my self there is people out there so much worse than you are and I need to just keep going and quit feeling sorry for myself. I believe God has brought me around too. This is my own personal experience and I am not telling any of you that you should do the same. Everyone is different and I pray you find the right medication and right exercise for you. God bless.

Apr 26, 2018 · Over the counter anxiety medicine in Depression & Anxiety

Good for you for realizing that you need to stop raising your voice.

Apr 26, 2018 · Over the counter anxiety medicine in Depression & Anxiety

@hopeful33250 I don't watch abusive shows either. I stay focused on the funny ones with no yelling or some of the police shows. I am an ex police fire rescue dispatcher so I do like watching the ones that are not too graphic to look at.