It's been some time since I've entered into discussion with my family (all of you). I've suffered from mental illness (Bi-Polar 1) for 60 years, and I self-medicated for 22 years (wouldn't take medicine prescribed by Doctors because I didn't like how I was feeling, and I couldn't drink alcohol because of
the interactions), and I became an alcoholic. I found my way into AA and this was the start on a path to wellness. Of course my thinking was warped,
and I thought that alcohol was my only problem. I forgot about having other mental illnesses. It took me another 20+ years to finally seek help for my
Bi-Polar 1/Anxiety/Border Line Personality. I've learned that I'm not capable of doctoring myself and to listen to the educated therapists and Doctors.
Last year, I realized that I was depressed and it was so different from past experiences I wasn't aware of what was affecting my feelings. My Doctor
changed my medication from Zoloft to Cymbalta and during the phase out of Zoloft and replacement with Cymbala, I suffered a psychotic episode and
was admitted to a psych ward for 8 days. This was the best experience in my life…….I finally accepted my mental illnesses, and I realized that all of us
have similar empathetic feelings towards each other, but we all have a different and individual story which makes us a living miracle. I feel like acceptance was a major break through for recovery and positive growth. I pray for all of you to be relieved of your depression and painful feelings.