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Jan 11, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

Thank you for your reply. Intellectually I know the guilt shouldn’t belong to me but my emotions say differently. The two can’t seem to hear each other. I clearly understand that I was not responsible for the crime my father committed but I want it to go away so bad that it seems easier to take the responsibility for that and the following chaos.

Jan 10, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

I have written before regRding my dealing with long term depression. I was doing pretty well but have begun feeling like i’m Slipping back. I have cut all ties with people I knew and spend my time with my daughter who has some special needs. I have been widowed for 12 years after 52 years of a somewhat tumultuous marriage. I think about the many things I did wrong and so badly wish I could have been a nicer person. I was raised in the Midwest in a home where my parents fi ghting was the standard that was there every day. Other terrible things happened and so many I blame myself for. I was a child but I could have behaved better instead of ad ding to be he the e siting problems. I ruminate on my past. And see that I wasted my whole life. I have become a useless being who adds nothing to this world. I’m just here. Am going to go back into therapy hoping that might give me some relief. I’m onmeds and have managed to stay out of the hospital for the depression the past two years. I have had two bouts of cancer during the past 5 years and hold my breadth each time I go or Che Kip’s. I think…. not will it comeback. But just when. I’m sorry for sounding so negative but I can’t seem to hold on to any positive thoughts. I need some people to talk to.

Jan 8, 2018 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

I too have dealt with long term depression since my younger years. Each time I would pull out and dare to live again some trauma would take me back down. It’s been that kind of yo yo my whole life. Have been on and off various meds throughout the years, some have helped but I have never been totally free. A while ago I just accepted hat this would be the way it would be. I am presently on Effexor which when you’re began really helped. At my request the dosage was reduced and I am now not feeling so drugged but notice the difference in negative ways. You indicated that you go to some kind of group that helps. Could you tell me more about that. I would appreciate that.

Dec 20, 2017 · Mother of special needs children losing her mind in Mental Health

I am 86 years old and have a 63 year old daughter with a disability. It is now thought that she is on the autism spectrum. When she was young there were multiple diagnoses. Learning has been a challenge for her but she has been able to achieve much more than we would have even hoped for. She is high functioning but yet needs attention with many things. Her progress is what has made me face each day and often with a smile. I have battled depression much of my life due to several childhood traumas and then the difficulty in caring and fearing for my daughter. I have always said that when we are given special children we should get eternal life. My greatest fears have always been what happens when I am no longer here. Enough for now. H ang in there. There is some sunshine amidst the clouds.

Oct 25, 2017 · Managing Lifelong Mental Health as a Senior in Mental Health

I too have dealt with depression for the better part of my life. I am now 86 years old and 2 years ago a psychiatrist put me on venafaxine and trazodone. I am now able to function better and sleep comes easily, a relief. Throuout the years, due to my depression , I have walked away from any friends I had. I have a special needs adult daughter who lives with me and she is the only person I do anything with. I long for adult interaction but am afraid to take the first step. I go back to when mental illness had a terrible stigma attached to it and get rid of those feelings of being judged by others as a mentally ill person. I have dealt with two bouts of cancer successfully alone and carry some resentment for being alone even though I may have caused it. I know what I should do to help myself but am unable to get motivated. I need things to do besides going to doctors and counselors. My husband died 12 years ago and I was his caretaker during his last year. At least I had a purpose. Now it is my daughter. I look forward to the day ending so I can go to sleep. It is what it is but very empty…

Oct 21, 2017 · Lexapro withdrawal in Depression & Anxiety

I was put on 150 mg of Venafexine twice a day 2 years ago. It helped my depression but I felt drugged most days and so after a while asked to be taken off of it. The doctor refused saying he’d have to put me in the hospital to do that and he wasn’t willing to take the chance that I then would then try to kill myself. I have never been suicidal but I went along with him. Finally, after more time had passed he agreed to reduce me to one 150 mg a day. He told me to just stop taking one pill at night. I did that and had no trouble and felt more like myself after a few weeks with the depression at the same level it had been with double the dose.
After reading about all of you who had serious problems after and with
weaning off your drugs, I have a problem taking it at all. Has anyone experienced any long term problems after taking the drug. .

Oct 9, 2017 · Kidney renal mass biopsy in Kidney & Bladder

A year ago I had a MRI of my abdomen where they saw a mass on my kidney. This was followed by a biopsy of the mass and it was found to be malignant. I had few options since I have chronic low kidney function. It was suggested I have an ablation of the mas which is done by a radiologist. They did the ablation successfully and all the followup scans have shown the mass is no longer a problem. I am being watched with different scans every three months in part because I had lung cancer 4 years ago and surgery removed the left lower lob of my lung. So far I have been fortunate in both instances since there hasn’t’ shown to be any other trouble spots. I am comfortable but lingering is always the thought that it is not “if”they will find something but “when” will it be. I am 86 years old , care for a 62 year old special needs daughter so that keeps me going. 0ther tan that, for my age, I am in good health and continue to live independent, cook, take care of my house and drive my car…

Oct 3, 2017 · Incontinence when asleep in Kidney & Bladder

Does anyone out there experience severe incontinence only when asleep? If so what type of treatment or meds have helped,