Good to hear from you, I hope you’re doing better yourself. I am dealing with Anthem right now because it seems they want to send me to an orthopedic doctor instead of a neurosurgeon/doctor. I am getting things worked out with the insurance though so I can see a neurosurgeon and hopefully soon I can get some answers and help.
The pain is not as bad thanks to my former employer. lol While I was having my MRI, X Rays and tests done they decided to politely and quietly let me go. Things happen for a reason though and it’s allowed me to not be on pavement 60 hours + a week. VA and TN both are “right to work” states so they can terminate you for any reason at any time. It would be my word against theirs and ultimately they will have to answer for it, not me.
I’m still not settled on disability because I feel like there are other things I can do. (my background is in graphic design, web design, marketing and sales) I’ve just turned it over to the Lord and letting Him handle it and letting Him guide me. I feel like He had to bring me to this place in my life to show me that I need to stop trying to “fix” everything myself and work things out on my own instead of relying on Him. My medical situation looks like it’s turning out to be a blessing more than a bad thing.
During all this I had I had become very bitter at my situation and my environment. I had it in my head I was going to fix my situation, I was going to move my family from the area where we live and go to a place that was thriving economically, get a good paying job, and all would be right. (Much like Abraham did when he went down to Egypt). We even went as far as taking a week trip to a coastal area in North Carolina to look at homes and for me to look for jobs that didn’t require being on my feet all the time.
When we got back I talked with my pastor and he told me I was running away, that he felt like I was making a big mistake and that it could impact my family in a negative way. I have a 14 year old daughter (1 of 3 daughters, she’s the oldest). My pastor told me she is a good kid but he felt like through much prayer she was lost, even though she made a profession of faith several years ago. She just didn’t have any fruit.
After talking with my pastor that Monday I got on my face before God and repented of my bitterness and rebellion. It was the next night, my 14 year old came out of her room to where I was sitting and she was crying. I asked her what was wrong and she told me “Daddy, nothing is wrong, I’ve been living a lie, Jesus just saved me”.
That was pretty much the assurance I needed to know I was going in the right direction. I had not talked to her, her mother had not talked to her, but the Holy Spirit sure had been talking with her. All we had been doing was praying.
All I can say is, God is good! It really changed my whole outlook on things. I may be hopping around and using a cane some but I have joy and peace in my heart which far outweighs the pain and the issues with my back and legs!
Thanks for keeping in touch and thank you for your prayers! Will keep praying for you as well.