I am sorry you have to go through this alone, this site and group is there to help and listen. Four years ago my blood work from my primary care doc was really low. WBC, Platelets, neutrophils etc. Scared me to death! She sent me to Mayo. Blood work was still the same and I had a bone marrow biopsy. By the way, take the versed as suggested. Then another one. The findings were nothing was wrong. Relief yes, but no too. What is causing all this to happen. My hematologist still cannot pinpoint why, we look every 3 to 4 months, blood work fluctuates but never crashes. So, hang in there. One other mistake I made and that was using Google to research this. That caused me terrible anxiety. Listen to the docs. and regardless what anyone says Google is NOT your friend :-).