@marvinjsturing One positive in your journey is that you have been through pancreatic cancer before so you know what to expect. Hopefully, this time will be easier. Then another five years sounds like too long, but getting your pancreas well is the first step again. Sometimes we wonder why things happen the way they do. I read a book entitled, Why Bad Things Happen to Good People. It is a comforting read, if you feel like thinking through that. It was given to me when I was going through a hard time in my life, and I found some consolation. You know that people are thinking of you every day and asking for help and comfort for you. Positive thoughts and prayers go nightly from me. If asking and praying can make things happen, then it will happen in your favor. It's just going to take a little more time. Growing up, I prayed daily for a bad situation in my life to be better. My mother told me and I have heard pastors and religious people say that the Good Lord doesn't get in a hurry, so we have to have patience. Stay in touch; I'll lift you up from my home, and I know others will too.