@summertime4 When I read your post, I felt as if it was one I wrote several years ago. However, my dragons are Diabetes and other problems that go along with it. I was diagnosed three years ago with no symptoms. I had a regular blood profile and a week later received a letter from my PCP saying, "You have diabetes." Then she didn't know what to do. So, I was left to my own devices to read and research and doctor myself. I was raging mad and ranted and raved and couldn't believe it. I found Mayo Connect and started asking questions, and the Volunteer Mentors and other members jumped in to help. I stayed mad for a long time until the Connect angels talked me through what I needed to do to help myself. It isn't easy, especially when doctors don't know and you get passed around. If you are lucky, you may get a doctor who can help. It would be wonderful if we could just take a pill and the pain and grief and anger could be cured. Life isn't that easy. I am sorry you lost your husband; that just adds fuel to the fire. My husband and I are still together, but he has heart issues that keep me on guard all the time. My feet are so painful that I sometimes cannot walk without crying. But, I think there is a bottom line. Each day if you can find something to be grateful for or something that made you smile, those little things eventually will become bigger and help you feel better mentally so that you can deal with the physical. If you stay with Connect, you will be able to read and know that you are not alone in your quest to feel better. Eventually, as angry as I was, no one in Connect gave up on me. Today, over three years later, I am still a Diabetic 2; my feet still hurt; and I also deal with kidney issues, panic attacks, and fibromyalgia. That along with my husband's heart problems; his eye stroke, his skin cancer keep health problems in the forefront of our lives. But, I know there are people who have so much more to deal with, and I am thankful. If you will, continue to share on Connect and let us know how you are doing, or if you have questions and no answers, ask on Connect, and someone will try to share an answer. We are not doctors, but we have had similar experiences and can offer what was done that helped us. Will you stay in touch? We all care.