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Jul 13, 2017 · How Spirituality Can Help Stress in Mental Health

If you download the app “Headspace” and stay on the HOME page, scroll to the bottom for the box that says “Subscribe Now”. But before that, you can try quite a few free meditations on the app as they indicate. Hope that helps…or contact them.

Jul 12, 2017 · How Spirituality Can Help Stress in Mental Health

Sure…I realize that my path could be somewhat different than others.
Many years of religious searching has given me many questions. Being that my relationship between myself, others, God and nature seems to point towards my inner self, I keep attempting to stay there.
Experiencing my particular type of bipolar, my mind races constantly- I do not say this lightly. Sleep hardly brings me peace and days are frought with fear of everything, anxiety, sadness, and loneliness. Maybe this dissipates for me for a time- sometimes a morning or a day, but not more. If I am happy- it is a searing joy about something- I call it an exquisite experience of God- and that passes within a few hours at most- so quickly back to before. I feel like I somehow almost “pay for it”. Though I know that’s the bipolar talking.
I explain the above to illustrate the difficulty I have in maintaining a consistent pattern for a spiritual path.
Spirituality, for me, is a part of the mental gymnastics that I try, desperately, to make sense of for my own existence.
How do I access the spiritual part of me that in past years was very different than it is now?
I listen to the HEADSPACE app, and grudgingly let go, with the thoughts swirling in my head, and hold myself there for 10, 15, or maybe 20 minutes.
When I finish the meditative time, the process somewhat harnesses my thoughts and I become peaceful inside, appreciating my life, in all the colors it shows me. There, I find the spiritual gift I so long for.

Jul 12, 2017 · How Spirituality Can Help Stress in Mental Health

I wanted to send my respect to you for your great task ahead. My husband and I just cleaned out his family house which we were living in for 3 years which also included all of our stacked up home goods, his parent’s complete life, and the memories of our son who is constantly moving in the military and never home.
It was definitely a journey of many months. Dismantling a home that has so much of all of you, and the family history in it takes time to pare down and time to feel ready to let go. I actually hired an organizer consultant who was very gentle with me about how to begin and gave us so many referrals for different steps that needed to be taken. Taking pictures of things that needed to go helped tremendously. I do not have a lot of money, so a few visits from her just got me going and I had a clearer picture of how to categorize what I “must” keep and the majority that had to “move on”. What kept me most honest with myself was knowing that I did not want to leave “things” for my son that he would someday not care about yet have to clean out himself. Many tears of loss were shed and when our children have left, the grief and sadness takes time to process in your journey through it.
Now being on the other side in an apartment, it is such a relief and such a weight is off from all the things that once seemed so important. I feel relieved that my son will not be burdened by “stuff”. We did keep things that we treasure and it feels like enough.
In our new place, our son visits and we talk of memories now. Everything that might seem gone is always in my heart. Still, as a mother, the transition to my son being away except for stolen weekends is grief and sadness that I work with day by day.
I hope I did not say too much. When you wrote the above, it brought to my mind the many parts of my own transition.
I wish you comfort in your memories and strength to keep pushing through it. There is an end. (I love the beauty of my own new place.)

Jul 12, 2017 · How Spirituality Can Help Stress in Mental Health

Spirituality is something difficult to share and speak about for me, yet sometimes as disconnected and unable to know who I am as I get, spirituality brings a slice of hope and ease to the sadness. One “helper” that I’ve used to connect with myself would not be what many might call spiritual. It is a guided meditation app for phone, etc. Its name is HEADSPACE and it is simply lovely to use for coaxing me through meditation…drawing out the connection to a path of peace.

Mar 28, 2017 · Dwelling on past mistakes in relationships. in Depression & Anxiety

I want to comment on @livethroughfocus from 6 days ago.
So very often friend/family disappointment/hurt, legitimate life stresses, and past “mistakes” cause me to doubt myself, worsen my depression and question my present rumination or repetitive thoughts because of said difficulties.
At these times, I caution myself, as I have learned the hard way, NOT to question present medication regimens as “not helping” or blame myself for not having a stronger constitution and just get a “stiiff upper lip” and “move on”.
In these times of great anguish and guilt and pain, those societal voices call to us to doubt the very pain we carry. At this point, “moving on” and letting go of prescribed meds would be a way to give in to denying the pain and taking society’s message to heart.
I have strong feelings about the following:
Suffering through the pain of past mistakes is real and necessary. Medications that a doctor ordered to assist getting one through the extremes of the sadness need not be abandoned…in fact, at these points, I embrace the gift that these medications exist now to help assist and increase the efficacy of my brain and heart’s difficult work.
I am no less strong by taking medications.
The important message is, that in this almost unbearable time of rumination, I have a great need to run away from it. And I truly must not do so.
I have, in the past, done anything to not face the pain. THIS is when “sweeping it away” is actually dangerous.
Yes, slowly thinking through, mourning, taking meds, and finding ways to love yourself, diverting my attention for short periods, are my biggest focus. THIS is strength. It may take some months, years, and parts may resurface at moments and never “go away”. Yes, I continue to find ways to love myself, though…with ALL my faults and successes.
I cannot run from myself…my feelings and ruminations are reminders to reach out for help, find ways to gently remember the past…it DID happen, and now I can slowly feel a bit more whole again even with the acknowledgement of pain.
I do not say this lightly. I am imperfect at all aspects of my above beliefs and intentions. Yet, through generous therapy and my own reflection, I know that truth and genuine suffering and following a prescribed medicine regimen cannot be avoided for growth and peace to happen.
I wish you some peace in all of your struggles. I hope you find assistance. I am with you in spirit.

Mar 14, 2017 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

I feel very heartened by all of your replies. It is a little scary to know that so many of you heard me. Thank you very much.
The concept that @georgette12 mentioned seems very true here too.
Possibly much of the lack of “physical” people in my life is fear of putting myself out there enough. The “energy thing” IS a serious problem. Yet, also, there is truth to the shortcomings of my memory and getting easily overwhelmed in a conversation where strong feelings come up and block out the ability to “hear” and comprehend any further.
Physical people who are my life seem put off by my inability to act completely “normal” or always respond as expected, so avoidance or visits of short duration are necessary…furthering the isolation.
If I share these concepts with them, or ask them to once in awhile ask how I am, I receive one to two calls and they drift away.
I am gathering a bit of hope writing here that others “get” the trappings and specific convoluted difficultis of having “physical” friends and family.

As an aside, I have a gem of a husband. He works long hours so I try to find my own way…like trying this writing with many of you.
I hope to read others’ offerings now, and respond. It is a new feeling knowing that someone else might be somewhat in my shoes.
My care goes out to anyone needing solace this evening. You are not alone.

Mar 14, 2017 · Long-term depression in Depression & Anxiety

I am just now new to this site. I am reading some posts regarding ideas for connecting, finding purpose, and essentially “getting out of” yourself. I have been there…and sometimes can sustain the optimism to make strides in that direction. It works like this: I walk 30 min a day for a few weeks. Then, either a person exhausts me, a situation happens, or I am triggered to sadness and I lose all.
It’s not that I will not try again when I build up again- usually in a few weeks.
The debilitating exhaustion and complete deep depression with anxiety feel that any options for feeling better are for later. This pattern repeats itself over and over.
Those that speak of finding a reason to push through the days I can relate to very much. The best I try for day-to-day is really giving love to my dog and watching the ducks and geese out the window. Nature can calm me, help me see how animals just keep awakening daily and get through until night begins again. They even make me smile through everything.
I wish for others a way to smile in these dark times.