Hey, @mjsmimi , how are you doing this afternoon? I am so proud of you for walking! That is one of the best things we can ever do for ourselves! Sounds like .maybe a little bit of sress has been taken off your shoulders. For that, I am very grateful.
Also, I am so encouraged that you have set boundaries for yourself. When we come to realize that we are not safe where we are, and decide to do something about it, well, that just takes strength. And courage. You are very brave for taking the steps you have already taken.
Your love and affection for those children tell me what a kind heart you have. You deserve to be safe as much as they do.
My hope is that you continue this plan of action, and that you will concentrate on first things first. The depression worries me, because I am not quite sure why you are weaning off the medication for it. I must have missed something somewhere.
I hope that you have a good doctor who is advising you on this. Sometimes it takes a while to determine what route to take, with depression. I have dealt with it almost all of my life. Will you be taking a different antidepressant when you are totally off the present one? For me, an antidepressant is as necessary as insulin is for a diabetic. I personally have tried just about every approach there is. I just get worse and worse, without those chemicals my body does not seem to make on its own.
Everyone is different. What works for one doesn't always work the same way for others. And if I have said too much, please know you don't have to answer anything I asked!
I just want you to know I am here for you in my little corner of the world. You are doing great! I will be sending all my positive energies and thoughts, prayers and hugs, your way! Talk to you soon!