Waiting for Acceptance/Denial

Yesterday, I filled out my questionnaire for internal medicine/consultative medicine. I had done research prior to contacting Mayo to know that Internal Medicine is a very difficult area to be accepted into but I decided at the suggestion of the admission consultant (who was incredibly kind) to go ahead and apply even if the likelihood of being turned down is more likely than not.

I decided after making the decision of what department to apply to I would do no more research before sending in the questionnaire because I had done tons and tons of research beforehand and realized that anymore would only make me question myself and give inauthentic answers and I want to if at all possible be as authentic and truthful as possible even if I don't get an appointment in this department.

Unfortunately, after I sent in the questionnaire I immediately started researching again and discovered that the symptom I chose as my main concern seems to be one that people claim Mayo doesn't like to address. So now I'm stuck in this cycle of did I do the right thing? Should I have chosen a different main concern even though this truly is my main concern and what affects me most and what my home doctors are baffled about the most?

I guess my question is how do people deal with limbo of waiting to see if Mayo accepts them for an appointment? I don't have high hopes but yet I have some. My quality of life is so so low as I know so many people's are that apply to Mayo. I feel like I have no more right to be seen than anyone else but yet....I want help badly.

The waiting is hard but so is continuing to live like this. How do I reconcile the waiting? And if denied how do I reconcile that this is not my answer?