Rumination

Posted by kenshabby @kenshabby, 12 hours ago

I’m stage four but my oncologist is saying some positive things about my Outlook. Nevertheless, I’m in a very very bad funk right now after a prostate ectomy in December my PSA is rising again, and I feel those little aches in my legs and ribs that scare me into thinking that This cancer has spread from nearby lymph nodes to bones.

All this leads to really, really dark rumination and lots of tears. And some like drinking 4 pints and a couple shots which doesn’t help at all.

My father had prostate cancer and I never got my PSA checked until it hit 28. It’s a long story. I have Lynch syndrome and I’m on top of my other possible cancers. I’m so diligent.

I’ve been OK for the last couple years mentally but now I am deep deep deep in rumination

I want to hear from other guys out there who have experienced the same. I’m gonna be blunt here what I mean by the same is looking in the mirror and saying you dumb MF how did you let this happen?

How did Scott Adams and Ryne Sandberg and Joe Biden let it happen when they were men of financial means?

The fact that other people have screwed up like I have doesn’t make me feel better.

But again I ask, is anyone out there ruminating like I am? Has anyone out there gotten past rumination and learn to live with the mistakes?

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jeff Marchi | @jeffmarc | 11 hours ago

You really didn’t tell us much. What was your Gleason score? What did they find in the biopsy and in the biopsy of the prostate after the surgery?

How high has your PSA risen?

You need to get a PSMA pet scan to see if there’s anything visible on your scan.

I know people who have had Gleeson nine prostate cancer and are still alive after 30 years. The treatments today are much better than they were in the past and the drugs available are much better.

I’ve had prostate cancer for 15 years and I have a genetic problem called BRCA2 Which causes it to keep coming back. My father died of prostate cancer, and my brother has it, But with today’s drugs and treatments, we can live a very long time with the proper treatment.

There are a lot of people who are filled with anxiety like you are. The first few years I was diagnosed I kept wondering, how long was I going to live and did I have five years?

Give us some more information about your case and maybe we can help Help.

One thing you might want to consider is going to the ancan.org advanced Prostate cancer weekly meeting tomorrow. If you go to the website, you can find out more about it. They can help you go over what your cancer results are and give you some advice. They’ve been helping people for 15 years and your case is probably one where they can help give you some comfort. You do need GoTo meeting Installed to attend the meeting. The meeting starts at 3 PM Pacific time tomorrow, It’s two hours. If you get there 10 minutes early, you will be one of the first people they will talk to

jsh327 | @jsh327 | 2 hours ago

We are all humans who have made past mistakes.

Isn't the question today when we look at ourselves in the mirror, what action are we going to take now to improve our life?

More specifically, what action will I take today to fight against my prostate cancer?

Sometimes we all need someone else to remind us of that reality. If you don't have someone in your life now to help you with that perspective, consider seeking help from a person with that expertise. That could be a fellow prostate cancer patient or a psychologist with this specific expertise.

mjp0512 | @mjp0512 | 1 hour ago

I had PSA test in 2015. It was 0.47 and then my PCP retired. Never got another one until 2025. I figured with my extensive family history of heart disease and the fact that I have heart failure, PCa was the least of my worries. Anyway, went to PCP because of some back pain. Turns the pain was from renal failure caused by urine retention due to prostate cancer. (Gleason 9, PSA 30+, mHSPC) Never got to the rumination part. The past is already gone. I was just plain pissed. Works better for me. Good luck, my friend. Get pissed at the cancer, not yourself, and fight like hell.