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I'm not sure where God fits in
My sister is my biggest supporter and the biggest town crier. she's really into church and has her prayer warriors praying for me. I'm a believer too. We see God's role in our life very differently. She believes in the power of prayer and I don't. She thinks God answers prayers and I don't. I think her view is making God a geni in the bottle just rub and your wish comes true or there is some reason for your pain that God is using you for. I look in the Bible and I see it does not work that way. Job is an excellent example.
I'm try to look for reasons to be thankful and say that in prayer. I don't want to become angry with God so I don't ask for healing because its only a 50/50 probability that the chemotherapy will be curative. What if I'm not on I'm the the winning side? I don't want to be disappointed in God. I don't angry with God.
Denise
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There are many things that I don’t understand regarding God and religion. I grew up in a very religious environment and family and I suspect that’s why I am skeptical of organized religion, but I do feel very spiritual and I pray a lot. I don’t profess to know what’s best for others. I just know my heart and my experiences. And that makes a huge difference in my life. The lack of equity of those with health and resources is baffling. I try to have faith and ask for comfort and acceptance.
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2 ReactionsHey Denise, I'm a Denise, too!😊 I appreciate your heartfelt honesty. It made me think of two things. I heard someone say faith begins when you lose it, meaning doubt is a feature of belief and faith, not a failure of it.
The other is my belief that whatever or however you think of God, God is big enough to be angry with. Anger is an emotion, and like all emotions, is fleeting and better expressed than not. God is BIG, my friend. Your anger will not last; it may come back, but we only stay stuck in emotions that are not expressed. Just my two cents. Wishing you the best.