Did you want to Break Bad and go full Walter White

Interesting article. I certainly don't have any expertise in human behavior, but speaking only for myself one of the emotional responses I had (after the immediate intense period of focusing on my diagnosis and treatment) was that having been diagnosed with cancer really made me aware of my own mortality. That realization caused me to focus in on things important to me. In my case, I believe it caused me to appreciate and focus in on some of the great things in my life like some of my family members and our relationships. But if I'd been struggling with money or negitive feelings of being wronged, maybe I would have focused in more on the dark stuff. So yeah, I think there's some truth in the article. But I also think a cancer diagnosis might be more of an amplifier, so it might bring out the worst in some, and the best in others. Or maybe some of both in each of us, depending on where our thoughts go. Again, I certainly don't know, but this is just my 2 cent opinion and I look forward to hearing others thoughts and experiences with this. Best wishes.

Yes, ditto. I was paralysed in a hospital bed for 3 1/2 months after my stage-4 diagnosis (and initially believed I'd be dead in a few years). Staring at the hospital ceiling, I didn't wish I'd climbed Everest or sailed around the world solo or made $1B from a web startup; I just wished I could watch Jeopardy with my family, walk around the shops in my neighbourhood, celebrate take-out-food Friday with my spouse, paddle a canoe at the family cottage, get soaked outside on a rainy day, etc.

It turns out the "ordinary" things were the only things in my life that mattered. The big ambitions and aspirations were all hot air.

4 1/2 years later, I haven't forgotten how lucky I was to get those ordinary things back.

I do not have "C" personally but I think about "breaking bad" lately very often LMAO, for the past few months at least once a week ahahahaaa !
I am sick a tired of being "perfect" citizen while crooks rule, pillage and rape and are admired and followed on top of it !!!!!!!!
Many days I wonder if I live in some parallel universe where all what is bad is admired ?!
BUT, than I remember how much I find it all disgusting, appalling and gruesome and I just pat myself on a back XP lol lol and happily enjoy myself in the little heaven I made for myself and my family : )))). "They" can not have THIS, no matter how much money or power they have. Pathetic looser, indeed . XP

EVERY…SINGLE…DAY…. My wife is so tired of hearing me say, “If tomorrow they gave me 6 months to live, I’d get so and so…..”
I don’t think it’s a cancer thing…more of a ME thing😈
Phil

As my prognosis/treatment has gone from curative to palliative, I am back on the "Is this worth it" phase.
5 Grandchildren is all I have and all I need to keep me from acting on thoughts.

Interestingly, I re-watched all the seasons of Breaking Bad when I was in bed recovering from my prostatectomy….

@briang1958 Totally get the despair from the change of curative to palliative. But please bear in mind that palliative can be MANY YEARS.
We never think of being on palliative care when we take our pills for heart disease, high blood pressure or diabetes, but that is exactly what it is; none of those diseases can be cured either!
I’ve had surgery and SRT; I will NEVER consider myself to be cured in any way.
When the next shoe drops, I’ll have to take the next palliative steps to keep me above ground.
We’re all just playing for time, so the time we have right now is the most important.
Just hang in there - and maybe get a punching bag to vent some of your emotions!🥊🥊
Best,
Phil