After surgery on my right shoulder cuff

I fell. It was ice and when I fell I had no idea that it would change my life forever! I had to be rushed to the hospital but no one knew I was there for 1 full hour. I laid there under my car freezing.
When I got to the hospital, they said My shoulder area, shattered. I was in no condition to ask any questions or make any demand so the doctor did what he thought to be right. I have a metal piece in my shoulder area.
I cry every night, its been a year now. I struggle to keep my job and i am in pain all the time. I take pain relievers but I am thinking about the rest of my life and I just want to know what are other options for my situation. I want to have some enjoyment in my life. Any body like my body? 🙂